This is a 30-minute video I just viewed a little while ago. It speaks of things you can do to detox yourself, both body and mind. One of the things Nithyananda brings up is in regards to the kinds of food you eat. I've been hearing a lot lately about the value of organic food, and the normal reaction I have to this is that organic food is so much more expensive. Now, the interesting thing that comes back to me is related to margarine and butter. Many years ago I felt that butter was too expensive for me to include in my grocery expenses. However, some information I read a while ago led me to decide to stop purchasing margarine and start getting butter instead. Well, guess what? Making that financial adjustment was easier than I thought it would be. So, if my goal is to increase my level of enlightenment, then why shouldn't the Universe support it?

This is feeling very right to me.

My life is definitely taking a sharp dive into the spiritual. On YouTube, I'd been subscribed to and watching a lot of the videos by "Arcturus Ant," and he further led me to a woman called "MaNithya Sudevi," who I've also subscribed to and watching. And now Sudevi has further led me to Nithyananda Dhyanapeetam of the LifeBliss Foundation! Lots of valuable content in all this, and it's very exciting to me!

MaNithya recommends a 21-day retreat that the LifeBliss Foundation does called "Inner Awakening." I've explored the pamphlet covering this retreat and I'm very, very interested in participating. A couple of days ago, after watching my first Nithyananda Dhyanapeetam video, I became so very quiet. It wasn't a forced thing at all, and in addition, the things that normally are irritating to me weren't at all. It was like the Universe was telling me to pay attention to Nithyananda Dhyanapeetam's influence on me--a very calming, peaceful, positive influence! After such an event, how could I not be interested in attending this retreat?

So now my thoughts are upon withdrawing from my normal protesting of what I perceive as the injustices in our world. And indeed, I have started doing just that. If you were to look at my Facebook page a week ago, and compare it to how it's been the last few days, you would see a great difference. I've started to see that to focus on my own inner peace is probably a whole lot more important. I will be continuing to consider this.

For anyone who's interested in investigating the Inner Awakening program, here is a link.

Namaste' to all of you!

Haven't been here in a while, but that's typically how I blog. I do it regularly for a while, and then I stop for a while.

But today has contained a gargantuan "aha!" moment that I really must share. I think it's one of those understandings that one must experience, rather than read, in order to really comprehend just how big it is.

All these years, I've known that Love Is The Most Important Thing. Plus I knew that we must embrace our enemies, regardless of how much they bother us.

Today, I really "got it."

Today I believe I understand that we truly all are One. Today I believe I truly understand that there is no Us and Them. Today I believe I understand that there is only "Us." When there is a perception that there is "them," then that is truly the time to be in a space of Love and to shine it out--envelope!--"them" with it. Love, compassion, acceptance. Give it to "them" freely. For in giving to "them," we give it to all of Us.

This is so exciting to me!

Namaste'

Just watched a movie called "Diary of A Single Mom." The bottom line is that she had been through much drama and many challenges but she was determined to make things better for herself and for her children, not to mention the people she cared about. The movie itself wasn't so great, but boy, did it give me some insights! Her focus was mainly on those around her, but at the same time, she was learning to care about making things better for herself, too. It gave me a lot to think about and really pushed its message straight through to the part of me that needs to pay attention.

The interesting thing is that over the past few days, things are springing up to show me that improvements are in the air. These improvements are things that are important to me, and the whole scenario is so very exciting to me! It really feels like these things are in my reach. I don't quite know how they've manifested, because there is more than one possibility, but it doesn't really matter. What does matter is that they are happening.

Plus I'm starting to really speak up about things that are important to me. I have a letter in the works to the interim ECISD superintendent regarding some suggestions I have, and I'm also going to be seeing Mrs. Young--my supervisor at school--regarding some things I want to bring up about work. I'm really finding my voice and I'm taking charge of how things can go for myself.

Excited! Proud of myself! Moving forward!

Life has taken an exciting turn. My focus is on the spiritual, and Spirit is guiding me to information that is SO relevant to me. Plus resources for things I need/want are manifesting. I am so excited about this! Makes me wonder what will be happening in my life by the time the summer break is over.

I've been having a strong experience of metamorphosis this evening. It's kind of unsettling, but at the same time, it gives me the feeling of expectation, of "what's going to happen next?"

With the exception of my breakfast, I've not eaten well today at all. I may redeem myself a bit tonight and eat an apple. But junk food has pretty much been my staple today. Oh, and I've had a decent amount of water today, too, which is good.

I've been doing a lot of metaphysical reading and viewing today. The main message I'm getting from it all is to honor my experience, allow others to have their experiences even though their views may not match mine, and if I don't agree with how others see things, chalk it up to contrast and, as I like to say, "let them be there." It's not up to me to dishonor another person's path and growth. It's not for me to judge anyone, but it is appropriate for me to learn more about myself in the viewing of other people's experiences. The lessons I take away from other peoples' lives may be completely different from how they see it, and that's absolutely okay. When Jesus said "Judge not," that's part of what he was talking about!

I've had an urge to really get down to reading the Qu'ran. I have a lot of respect for Islam, but I don't know anything about its religious book, and really, I can't give a good debate about anything having to do with it unless I have a good foundation. So I really need to do that.

Namaste' to all of you!

So yeah, I did indeed take it easy today. I didn't make the chocolate cake, though; probably another time.

I was watching the movie called "Good Deeds" with Tyler Perry a little while ago. It got me thinking about the "Prince Charming" concept, where a guy comes along and saves the damsel in distress. Yeah, I'll admit I've wished for that at times. It's no fun struggling when those kinds of challenges come to me, but at the same time, as I've said before, I get a little humorous and say that the Creator is giving me a huge compliment because s/he knows that I can deal with it.

So this is the bottom line: the Prince Charming IS ME. I have all those resources in me already and I have to know that and claim it and aim my eyes towards it. I have a certain lifestyle as my goal, but at the same time, I have this idea in my way that to achieve it requires lots of drama and difficulty. My Love and I have started to develop a picture of how we choose our life together to be; we can choose for that life to come to us with difficulty, or with ease. Needless to say, for it to come to us with ease would be very nice!

Here is an idea: What if I just decide that the life we choose comes to us easily?

I'm posting kind of early today. I may write some more later, too.

I'd forgotten to mention that yesterday, when I did my meditation, I imagined myself deep in the earth in a huge cave, with a much smaller cave to its side. The smaller cave was covered all over with rich, emerald-green moss and was just the right size for me to enter and sit in. So in my mind, this is where I did my meditation. I was dressed in a long beige tunic, quite comfortable and soft. It draped my body and felt wonderful.

Today I've already gotten some things done, and I think I'll take it easy for the rest of the day. I may make a cake; my youngest son had asked for a chocolate cake several days ago and I just may do it later.

I have a Facebook account and I'm a member of a group that focuses on New Age kinds of things; through that group I was led to this web site I did one of the transmissions a little while ago and it was very nice! I'm "getting" that I shouldn't do any more than 1 each day; this makes sense to me because I wouldn't want to overload myself. That could cause a load of chaos, yes?

Blessed be to all of you, and namaste'

Hello, world. At this moment, I feel like crap because my belly is FULL of my eldest daughter's scrumptious enchiladas :) However, I've taken a water + baking soda drink and it's slowly getting better, which is a good thing!

Today was a pretty good day. I got out and did a bit more than 3 miles of walking; immediately afterwards, I did a wonderful meditation to this "music" that relaxed me so beautifully:



I did some cleaning, but not as much as I did yesterday. I also worked on my sign language. In addition, I've spoken to someone in the office of the chiropractor I want to see; I'll need about $100 for my initial appointment, and then $45 for every other follow-up appointment, altho I don't know how many of those I'll need.

So all in all, I've worked on 5 items from my list of goals for the summer. Yay me!

And even as I'm typing this, my stomach is getting SO much better :)

Today is my Love's birthday and I was feeling kind of bad that I didn't do more to acknowledge it, even though he doesn't normally celebrate his birthday. I hope I can make up for it in the future.

I was going leave on Sunday to visit my friend for a few days, but I think I'll postpone that until next month.

As for this evening, I'm feeling pretty spacey. I think I'll just chill for the rest of the evening and get to bed at a decent time. And maybe I should build a nap into my day for the next little while and see how that works for me.

Namaste', everyone.

I'm definitely liking the freedom I'm experiencing during this summer break :) I really feel like I've let quite a few things get out of hand in the past several months, and I like it that I have the time to get them back in control.

I've gotten quite a bit done today. On my list of things to work on this summer, I've done numbers 1 through 5 as well as #8, with huge emphasis on #1. I'm pretty pleased with myself and I hope I keep up the momentum through the summer time. Heck, I may even get some reading in before the day is out!

Seems like I'm still leaning towards keeping my job working with the school district. I don't know if it's getting any firmer in my mind, but at least I've been giving it thought.

I was thinking about the views this blog has been getting, even despite the fact I've only told one person about it. I want to let y'all know--whoever you are--that I appreciate it, because your views are giving me the motivation to keep coming back. In continuing my posts, I'm sure I'll get more clarity about what's happening in my life and I'll be able to move forward more intelligently.

A few days ago, I'd commented about wanting to have more peace and quiet here at home. I had lots today, and I'm so grateful for that!

To all of you who are kind enough to peruse my musings---Namaste'

Well, today is my first official day of summer break. I have some things to work on; here is a rough list.

1. Get my house clean, including my bedroom
2. Work on getting better at American Sign Language
3. Make a decision about what I'll be doing for work come the beginning of August
4. Spoil myself a little
5. Improve my physical fitness
6. Maybe see about getting chiropractic treatment
7. Do some reading
8. Further develop my spiritual side

Today I've worked on #1, #3, #4, and #8.

For #2, my plan is to develop a play list on YouTube and go through it at least 3 times each week, as well as using the "Sign Language for Dummies" book that a friend gave to me.

Regarding #3, I'm starting to lean towards staying at Hood. However, I need to talk to Mrs. Young (my supervisor there) first.

This really does feel like it's been a productive day, and I'm satisfied with it.

Just watched an amazing video called "The Pleiadian Prophecy - Matt Kahn/TrueDivineNature.com"

It's a bit more than an hour long, and it has really produced a shift in me. I would've embedded it in this entry, but embedding has been disabled for it. If you feel the least bit curious, I encourage you to check it out. Your curiosity is probably a nudge from something higher than you.

Namaste'

I was just looking at the stats for this blog, focusing on the page views. When I saw the number of page views before, I always assumed they were my own views as I was looking at things while setting certain details up. But today, well this is the first I've been on my blog today, and there are 10 views. This is very interesting.

I was just looking at an article about a couple who committed suicide together. They were a well-known couple who did life coaching on the radio and apparently "being happy" was their theme. So now that they decided to kill themselves, people are wondering about the wisdom of focusing solely on happiness. And you know, I get that. If you think you should always be happy, and you're not, what kind of pressure does that put on you? How much of a success do you think you'll be? And how much value do you think you have, if you can't be successful at that "one little thing"? And then, if you're preaching it publicly, that puts even more pressure on yourself.

I feel sorry for that couple, in a way, because they must have felt so much pain in the short time before they made that decision. And in my personal belief system, when you kill yourself, things are more difficult for you when you come back another time (i.e. reincarnation, which yes, I do believe in that).

I'm really glad I saw that article. I've been feeling pretty down lately, and seeing it helps me to know that I'm not the only one, and there is value in the "contrast," as Abraham (-Hicks) puts it.

Namaste'

I've really been craving some peace and quiet at home, which has been difficult to obtain over long periods lately. I can get some when I leave the house, but it seems like when I'm at home, and there are other people in the space I'm occupying (or want to be in) at any given moment, I feel like my space has been invaded. It's gotten to the point where I get very emotional ever-so-easily and little things will bring me to tears.

I'm going to visit an old friend in about a week, and I'll be there for 3-4 days. Maybe I'll get some more of my sanity back when I get a break away from here.

You know how you have plans, and they look like they're laid out so perfectly, but then something happens that messes things up?

I've been unhappy in my current job as a special ed aide for a few reasons. The main reasons are the low pay along with the aide who works with me, who is over 70 and who doesn't seem too keen to be involved with the more challenging students in our class. I feel overburdened, taken for granted, and not so appreciated.

So when I found out about a free certified nursing assistant (CNA) course, I looked into it and found out there was a possibility of being able to take this free course during the school summer break. I was informed that there was a class tentatively planned for June 25; it would go for a month. This would have fit into my summer break very well because it would give me a couple of weeks free before the class started, and then I'd hopefully be able to have a little time to see how the work would go so I could make an informed decision about leaving my current job.

Well, the class start date changed to June 5 or 6, which was a definite problem because I was still in school at that time (today was the last day). I asked about the next start date; it's in the beginning of July, and it would end in the beginning of August, just before the new school year starts. This would work out pretty well, but for some reason, the instructor couldn't guarantee that I'd get a seat in that class. So I'm very restless about that, because I really want this to happen.

Not to mention that I just found out today that there will be a major change in how my job will go in the next school year. It appears that I may not be working with the other aide as much as I've been this year, and even with a different teacher, not to mention with a completely different program. I think I'd like that.

And a good friend helped me with a tarot card reading about a week or so ago that speaks of a new job. Either of those situations would pretty much fit that criteria. I'm hoping for a pay boost, and there was an announcement that my current job would make me eligible for a $400 bonus at the end of each of the semesters. The CNA job would be an increase in pay, too, but it wouldn't be through a bonus; it would be due to more pay per hour. I don't know which would be the most lucrative, though, because the bonus may average out to as much pay per hour as the CNA work.

I'm glad I wrote this down. I believe I'm more at peace about all of it, and I just might talk to the school administrator about this in the next couple of weeks.

Thank you, God/dess.

I've had a lot on my mind lately. There's an interesting Bashar video on YouTube that speaks very clearly to me about how my thoughts manifest my reality, and I'm taking it very seriously.



There is so much talk in the community of people I associate with about things like U.S. internment camps, people being imprisoned indefinitely (due to the NDAA), the U.S. currency value falling drastically, and other negatively-charged things. Bashar's lesson lets me know that I have the power to keep this from occurring in my life as long as I take the appropriate steps. This is exciting to me, but it's also pretty overwhelming. What is the right way to proceed? I'm not sure.

I've been getting these little nudges to meditate more regularly. I did it a couple times last week and I've not done it since. I don't know what to do to discipline myself to really do it. It's really getting on my nerves.

My youngest daughter and I used to get along super well. Unfortunately, we hit a huge bump in the road where things took a 180-degree turn for the worse; it lasted a couple of years, I guess. Well, things are significantly better now, but we still have our issues about 50% of the time, maybe a little less. Experienced just such an episode a bit earlier this evening, and such things really bother me. I really do believe that there is much chaos on the planet right now due to planetary transition, and that most of us inhabitants are showing that chaos in our own lives. I'm pretty sure that the challenges between my daughter and me are a part of all that. Two other things I firmly believe are that out of chaos comes order, and that sometimes when it appears that things are falling apart, they're really coming together. I really need to hold on to those concepts.

Hi, everyone. I really feel like the world is going through some incredibly dramatic changes right now, and we are on the edge of something big. I also believe that the way my life is going is a reflection of all that. I guess I could be keeping a written journal of what I'm dealing with, but having a blog is more appealing to me. I've attempted to do blogs in the past, and I have to admit that they all came to an end simply because I wasn't disciplined enough to keep them going. Maybe, just maybe, this one will be different.

Be prepared to see some unique things here, because my personal Truth is far from traditional. My background is traditional, but my present is anything but.

And I will end my first post with a word that has great meaning to me. One way of interpreting this Sanskrit word is: "The divine in me honors the divine in you." And yes, I firmly believe that we all are divine.

Namaste' <3